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“I have always known I was gay, or into women more than men,” Nicole shared to Reddit. “I think I was only interested [sic] in men for the idea, and picture of it all.”<\/p>\n
Nicole and Leroy* have been together for 13 years, but Nicole has struggled “more and more” with her sexuality as the years have gone by.<\/p>\n
“I fell in love with a woman recently,” Nicole revealed. “I had my first full-blown sexual experience with a female. It was everything I had imagined and more!”<\/p>\n
Describing the lesbian affair as the “best feeling in the world”, Nicole is concerned about her current living situation.<\/p>\n
“I have a house, two kids…” Nicole began, adding that she feels guilty for cheating and guilty for wanting out of her marriage.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n
“I got drunk and had unprotected sex with my husband and now I am 14 weeks’ pregnant,” Nicole shared.<\/p>\n
“I am in individual therapy and we are doing couples counselling,” Nicole said of her and Leroy.<\/p>\n
“I have still been talking to the woman daily and miss her so much. I want to be with her and touch her every day.”<\/p>\n
Nicole said: “I cringe when my husband touches me. But I feel like I have to stay for my kids and for this unborn child, that both my husband and I want.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n
“I’m struggling to be excited about the pregnancy… I know I love my husband, but I think as a friend and as a co-parent.<\/p>\n
“I know [it would] break his heart and I want to make him happy because he has done so much to try and make me happy.”<\/p>\n
Nicole added: “Ideally I would find a way to be attracted and in love with my husband and have that feeling of wholeness in my body and with myself with him, the way I do with this woman.<\/p>\n
“That way there is no divorce and sharing the kids and holidays and all that mess. But I know that is not possible.”<\/p>\n<\/div>\n
Nicole is hoping for an “amicable” separation once the newborn is a few months old.<\/p>\n
“Then my husband and I [can] remain close friends,” Nicole imagines. “Even do combined holidays at times.”<\/p>\n
Nicole continued: “He can find a partner who is head over heels with him… a woman who does not cringe at his touch.”<\/p>\n
She pleaded to the Reddit community: “Any advice or thoughts on this is greatly appreciated! I need some outside perspective.”<\/p>\n
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